I honestly think I love you. But at the same time, I hate you. I know I can’t expect you to be someone you’re not.. but damn. Can’t you just not be like every other ass hole? Please? I’m pretty sure I got my heart set on you.

I stay up and think about the things I’ve done. I wonder if I’d never done them.. what would my life be like? But most of all, I wonder why you never gave me a chance. I swear, I could’ve been the best thing that’s ever happened to you. But you’ll never see it. I’m just that girl you hooked up with. I wish I could forget you just how you forget me. I just wanna delete how my heart feels. And move on. Where’s my special guy? Everyone has seemed to find theirs, except me.. Goodnight.

I really just wanna turn all of my emotions off already.. I’m dead. I’m over the let downs with me and playing in college, I’m over guys using me, *I just wanna be happy. And I finally realized I’m the very one preventing myself from doing that. So, to all of you that care about me? You’ll show it, cause you’ll come to me. And all of you that don’t care? Guess I’ll find out for once in my life who actually gives a fuck.